给７年友谊的最后一封信～

我拥有的不多，

就连仅有的都失去了，

在知道的那一刻，

眼泪竟然汹涌而出，

而那一刻，

我才知道，

那么多年的友情，

并非假的，

而现在，

我们却是陌生人，

不管如何，

在我心里，

我们还是很要好很要好的朋友，

虽然只是我的一厢情愿～　

希望，

未来，

你能过得很好～　

无奈～

虽然很久没更新，

但不想写～

我只想问我自己,

“我到底想怎样？！！！ ”

chocolate~~~

2day i rili damn hapy~~
not just 2day,
tiz few day i oso fell very happy~
i can feel wat had changes~
happy of u accompany me during tiz few day,
happy of ur changes,
and oso the most imprortant.......
happy of that chocolate that u give me,
i just can say, GOSH~ i like it a lot!!











AND OSO,
tiz is wat we having last nite~~~
having japanese food @ damai~
i rili cannot imagine just 2 people of us can eat so many~~~
tiz is wat v order:

1. 2 plate of eel sushi
2. maiyo egg sushi
3. 2 plate of omelette sushi
4. 1 plate of course 4 ( include prawn,rice, sup, eel, meatball, and oso sashimi)
5. maiyo corn sushi

i like it! =)

my cute cousin~~

Many day d feel like wan to update my blog,
but bcoz of lazy upload pic,
then i give up my feeling~~~
when i arrage my photo in my computer,
suddenly i c all my cute and beloved cousin pic~
i just can say they rili cute~~~
i love them a lot~~~

her name is rainbow~~~ rili a nice name~~~~




tiz is another cousin~ he rili very naughty~~~
why? because......

he is the one who throw my high heels to road!

tiz gal is the 1 who very independence~ i like to talk with her~


tiz 1 is the most naughty gal among all of them~~
like to cry, oways buli by other becoz she like to disturb people~~~~

another claver gurl~

like to stick with her when i going back hometown~

i rili miss them lot~~~~*huge*

心中的恐惧~

很多次，
当幸福来时，
我曾经想好好的抓着，
不让它飞远，
不管花多少力气，
我都愿意~
曾经小时的经历害我失去安全感，
害怕原本属于我的东西会消失不见，
害怕我想拥有的东西都会离我而去，
害怕历史又在重演~
这些害怕都完全成了我的影阴，
一个永远不可能离我而去的噩梦,
一个永远都会呆在我心房的恶魔~
所以一开始我也把话说得很清楚，
因为我不想也不敢再去尝试那种可怕的感觉~
我想要的是发自内心的疼爱~
就算是一点点，
我也能开心好几天~
可是，
往往得回来得却是心痛的感觉~
谁能告诉我，
怎样才能把身边的人，事，物，永远的留在身边？
怎样才能让它们不会消失？
因为我真的害怕失去的感觉~~~
我......真的不想在经历同样的事了~

..................

tiz few day i go back tawau coz of sum family problem~
i rili fell very sad~
i still remember,
it was 9.00am sumthing....
that tym i still in my office~
when i working,
suddenly my hp was ringing~
it my mum calling~
i just hear she cry when i answer the phone~
when i hear wat she say,
i started crying~~~
i stil remember,
when i still young,
i oways go her house,
she oways will cook many delicious food for me~
she oso will teach me math~
i rili cant imagine,
y a good person like her,
will so fast leave us~~
i rili miss her a lot~~~~
i just can console myself that
maybe tiz oso not a bad thing~
maybe if like tiz,
she will no nid suffer again~~
from a happy and health women,
just in around 1 year time,
i c her becum a very emaciation~
but wat i learn from her is,
eventhough she sick,
she still very adamanvy and optimistic~
tiz is wat i dun have in myself~~~
i just wan to tell her that:
" u are my beloved aunt, i will oways miss u~
dun worried about ur 3 cute and pretty princess,
i believe we will take good care to them~~~
they will grow up in a happy and health enviroment~
i won 4get how u treat me when i was a kid~
i oso will treat ur 3 princess just like how u treat me and take care me when i was a kid,
姑， 您安息吧~~~"

MERDEKA ^^

WOOW~
after suffer for 1 month,
2day, at 3.45pm,
i finally finish my last STPM paper!
Now the 1st thing i wan do is,
throw all my book in to the box,
take all the paper to recycle,
say bye bye to my BANANA uniform,
make my room free from all the chemistry, math and biology!!!!
from this moment,
x chemical thing, x human body, x formula in my brain!!!!
no nid study and memories all the biology essay!!!!
Hurray!!!
haha~ so happy x need go back to that hell!!! (form 6 student, r u agree with tiz?)
rili x know how to explain my feeling now!!!
2day rili a commemoration day for me!!!!!
haha~

2morrow is a new day!!
start with a new life~
2morow is my 1st day start working!!!
feel a bit scare~
x know wat will happen~
i duno i can handle my work nicely or not~
but,
nvm,
just think about the salary that i will get in the end of the month~
then all the thing will be all right~
haha~

homemade cake~~

2day jo help me celebrate birthday ( eventhough gt a bit early ),
v go having a very very nice dinner ~
erm.. what make me surprise is,
i nv think that he will make a birthday cake for me~
rili make me very surprise!



This is how the cake look like~ chocolate homemade cake~
taste nice and not too sweet~ yummy~ ^^



mayonnaise chicken steak~ super super big ~ cannot finish o~



black pepper chicken ~

erm,
this is the 1st tym got people make a birthday cake 4 me,
i very appreciate it,
so,
i will finish the whole cake by my self ,
even though i know i will become very very fat after finish it~
so,
my friend,
if next tym when u c me,
just diam2 la....
dun ask y i so fat le~


p/s: dear, i know u busy with ur exam, but u still make a
cake for me~ thanks for your cake~

是怕寂寞，還是愛我？

當你說你喜歡我，其實你是否清楚？
你是想替心靈找一份寄託，還是樂意將心靈付託給我？
是我不夠自信，或是你給我的信心不夠多，請你告訴我。
告訴我，你在甚麼時候會特別想我？
是在風和日麗的下午，還是在煙雨霏霏的晚上？
是在人來人往的人潮，或是在荒涼僻靜的地方？
是在興高采烈之際希望與我分享，抑或在心情低落之時盼望我能替你分憂？
假如我們去旅行，你想和我一個人去，
還是召喚更多的朋友？假如我們在森林中並肩漫步，
黑暗忽然襲來，你伸手找不著我，
你會先想到自己的安全，抑或和我一樣，先擔心你的下落？
假如我們流落在荒島上，我們形影不離；
但在五光十色的都市裡，你是否願意和我相依為命？
在寒冷的時候，我會為你沏一杯茶，呵一口氣，讓你把腳掌擱在我的肚子上。
在你不快樂的時候，我會放下工作，陪你借酒澆愁，陪你胡亂shopping。
在你怫鬱的時候，我會不辨是非地給你發洩，
讓你如孩子般無理，讓臂膀給你咬個痛快。
但是，當我心情低落的時候，
當我呆頭呆腦的時候，你會願意去理解我嗎？
其實你是愛我，抑或只是愛著我對你的好？
我不會問如果有一天我瞎了跛了蕩產傾家了，你會否依然愛我。
我只想知道如果有一天我們分開了，你會否很快便能愛上另一個？
是非我不可，還是恰巧遇上了我？是真的愛我，還是害怕寂寞？

（转载）承諾不過是希望

有些觀點是永遠無法取得共識的，
譬如：愛情需不需要承諾？
認為愛情需要承諾的說：「沒有承諾，怎知他對我有多認真？」「沒有承諾，我的心無法踏實。」
認為愛情不需要承諾的說：「要是你相信我，便不用承諾；要是你不相信我，承諾又有可用？」「承諾是甚麼？是一刻的歡愉，一生的痛楚。」「承諾有意義嗎？若然兌現不了，你是不是打算殺了我？」
你認為呢？
我認為承諾本是美事，只不過我們都愛耍賴。
你我心知肚明，愛情從來沒有保障，
因此人壽有保險，醫療有保險，
失業有保險，家居有保險，旅行有保險，
就是沒有保險公司肯推出愛情保險。
沒有保障，何來承諾？
愛情的承諾壓根兒就不是保證，不過是在某時某地，
某人高聲疾呼的一個希望。
真心許下的承諾是真的希望，
假意說出的承諾才是信口開河。
刻意作假，人人得而誅之；
可若是真心希望了，卻無法兌現，能夠怪誰？
「要怪就怪他不夠努力愛我，沒有盡力去實踐承諾。」
或許如此，但是我們曾經對自己許下的諾言，
又有多少兌現了？
「我要減五十磅！」「我要買豪宅！」
「我要出人頭地！」兒時在作文課上寫下的「我的志願」，
現在實現了嗎？
明天的事無人知曉，因為不知，所以懷疑，
為了減輕疑慮，所以想聽承諾。
承諾曾經讓你快樂，曾經為你披上閃耀的婚紗，
即使到最後只換來失望，總勝過不曾有夢吧？

Finally i graduate oready~ hurray!!!

After suffer in form 6 around 1 and a half year,
finally, finally, i graduate already!!! Hurray!!!!
I can leave that 'ghost' place already,
need to say BYE BYE to my banana uniform,
and also,
my 1st aircon classroom~
After finish my Stpm, i will have 7 MONTH holiday!!!
So happy~~~ wakakaka~~~~ XD

A simple decoration~
My class ~ 6 Atas Sains ~
All the form 6 student~ ( gudluck to u all)
All my classmate and my form teacher - Teacher Bestah~
mummy and i ( look like my sister?)~

take pic with all the leng lui and leng zai~


erm,
lastly,
good luck to u all and
all the best in the future~
Keep in touch ya~ ^^

后。青春期的诗

经过700天的等待，
终于~终于~
五月天第7张专辑出来了。。。
他们果然没让我失望，
他们的音乐是那么的令人震撼~~~
让我不禁大喊 ‘五月天万岁, 摇滚万岁’

用買的，用抓的，怎樣都好。
五月天只有最簡單的一個要求，
「從頭到尾，不要間段的聽一次吧！」这是阿信说的。

专辑的歌词，
美的就像诗一样，
让人陶醉其中，
不知不觉进入五月天的世界，
清楚的感受到五月天所带来的震撼力和感染力，
让我深深感受到，
就算组团已有10 年，
但他们对音乐的热情和执著，
并不输给世界上任何一个人~

原本从来不听也不喜欢摇滚乐的我，
很奇怪的，
竟然会听五月天的歌，
我自己也觉得莫名其妙，
难道这就是五月天音乐的魔力，
让人不禁跟着哼着起来，
不禁的为他们疯狂~

五月天 - 突然好想你

五月天 - 突然好想你

詞曲/阿信

最怕空氣突然安靜 最怕朋友突然的關心
最怕回憶 突然翻滾絞痛著 不平息
最怕突然聽到你的消息

想念如果會有聲音 不願那是悲傷的哭泣
事到如今 終於讓自已屬於 我自已
只剩眼淚 還騙不過自己

突然好想你 你會在哪裡 過的快樂或委屈
突然好想你 突然鋒利的回憶 突然模糊的眼睛

我們像一首最美麗的歌曲 變成兩部悲傷的電影
為什麼你 帶我走過最難忘的旅行
然後留下 最痛的紀念品

我們 那麼甜那麼美那麼相信 那麼瘋那麼熱烈的曾經
為何我們還是要奔向各自的幸福和遺憾中老去

突然好想你 你會在哪裡 過的快樂或委屈
突然好想你 突然鋒利的回憶 突然模糊的眼睛

最怕空氣突然安靜 最怕朋友突然的關心
最怕回憶 突然翻滾絞痛著不平息
最怕突然 聽到你的消息 最怕此生 已經決定自己過
沒有你 卻又突然 聽到你的消息

****************************************************************************************
听到这首歌，
第一个感觉就想起你~~

“突然好想你 你會在哪裡 過的快樂或委屈
突然好想你 突然鋒利的回憶 突然模糊的眼睛”

而这就是我想对你说的话，
好久没你的消息了，
害怕面对，
逃避现实，
是我不对，
但我希望在世界某个角落的你，
能活得开心快乐，
相信你能找到你要的~

五月天的音乐
就是那么的真实，
那么的贴近人心，
听到这首歌之后，
很多回忆都浮现在脑海里，
真的好想好想你~~~

你是不是真正的快乐？？？

刚刚看完了五月天的MV首播“你不是真正的快乐”，
看完后有一种莫名的感觉~~~
感触很多很多~~~
歌里有一句是这样，
“你不是很正的快乐， 你的笑只是你穿了一层保护色”
阿信真的说的很对~~~
每个人其实都不是真正的快乐，
每个人小的背后都隐藏着很多悲伤和不快乐，
为什么不试着脱下那层保护色，
变成一个真正快乐的人呢？
听了这首歌后就哭了，
歌词里的字字句句都深深插入我的心，
歌词是那么的真实，
那么的贴切~~
不只我自己，
最近的天灾人祸不断发生，
很多人都不快乐，
但为了不让家人担心，
假装的很快乐~
这是一件多么痛苦的事~~~
我决定了，
尝试让自己忘掉不开心的事，
做个快乐的人~
谢谢阿信让我有这样深的体会~~
那，
在看我的文章的你，
你是不是真正的快乐呢？

发发牢骚～

又是星期天～
不管星期一或是星期天，
都要面对着那厚厚的课本，
要面对着那贴满满人体和动物图片的墙壁～～ =.='
好期待stpm快点考完哦~~
期待每天睡醒就看电视，
期待无聊时就逛逛街的日子~（又在发白日梦了）
我也不知要怎么挨过这一个月，
４本chemistry 只读了２本，
２本biology只读了１本，
math还是半桶水～
看来我完蛋了～
看来只有一科会及格了～ @.@

please pray 4 her~

last tuesday aunt was send into SMC~
b'coz she feeling not well...
yesterday she need to operation,
becoz all the food that she eat cannot digest~
she already dun have her stomach,
i cannot imagine what will happen if she still cannot eat~
during operation,
doctor discover that maybe there are some cell cancer at her esophagus~
but just maybe,
need wait for the report~
hopefully it is not truth~
hopefully just doctor make mistake~

actually i very proud of her~
when she know she have this disease,
she very brave,
she face it~

when i listen all of this,
i really feel very sad~
just a few month din see her,
she really change a lot~
becoz of her sick,
her weight decrease a lot~
becoz of her sick,
she look like very emaciation~
becoz of her sick,
she need to face with the reality~
and becoz of her sick so,
she need to leave her beloved pretty and cute daughter,
come to kk ~

god~ please help her,
help her to recovered from all the sick~
she still have 3 very very very small kid,
she can leave her children like that only~
children are innocent~
they need their mummy~

to those who read this articles,
please pray for her.....
hope she can get well soon~
hope she can go back her home as fast as possible~
hope she can change back like be4~

tanjung aru picnic~

4get the date that v go to beach oready~
but what i remember is,
tiz is the 1st tym so early go to beach with friend~
when v reach tanjung aru,
walao~ so pity~ no people 1~
just got a couple dating at there only~


















aiyo~ too early~
no people at there~















our breakfast ~
me and goh make de~
yummy~















start playing~















what u all doing there?!
ah long so pity~















y feel like fu wan kiss ai ming~
oh my god!!















so many hp and camera~
lelong~ lelong~
2nd hand hp , who wan buy~















china olympic got 'fu wa' (福娃）
malaysia got ' fu gui'（福龟） ~















before go home~


wow~ that day rili have a very nice trip~
thankx 4 a long de chicken wing~
rili very nice~

reunion~

yesterday rili a very happy and nice gathering~
v have a gathering in k-box with all the old classmate~,
after more then 1 year din see each other~
















start singing~ all still 'act' like shy shy~














our lunch~
taste x bad~
yummy~




















start having lunch~


















pheweet~ cindy is singing~
forget is watsong already~














see tiz fellow~ our singing queen~at 1st, sit very nice~

















after sing a few song, berlutut oready~


















OMG~ stand on the sofa already~
Dewi, bekful~













start dancing~













mayday song~y eah~~~~~~~~~













smile~
miz u all~

my 1st tym~

2day is my 1st tym do tiz type of experiment~
feel very very excited but actually inside my heart rili very very very very scare~
feel scare is because i nid to operate a hamster~ (sweat)

omg~ rili very cute~

START experiment~ sory~ my pity hamster~

tiz is all the hamster's organ~
tiz is hamster's front part~v need to open the brain and oso see hamster's eye~

finally finish the experiment~

take a picture before throw it~ goodbye~ my pity hamster~


this experiment rili very different ~
during experiment, some hamster has very nausea smell~
rili make people feel like want vomit~